Recently I got gifted the complete Star Wars on blu-ray. I’ve always had a strange relationship with Star Wars films. Empire Strikes Back is to blame for Scooby-Doo being ruined for me*. For example. But overall I think they can be a lot of silly fun. Except…
The first movie is kinda shit.
Now here’s the thing – I never saw it in the theater so watching it all fancy and high def like that was amazing. It looked wonderful – with a few exceptions. Most of those were the newer added scene, which still don’t visually fit and throw you off-kilter. Also the mattes… look I know this was done when they were inventing the technology being used and I forgive the special effects for looking like they were done, well, exactly when they were done. That’s no problem. But when they had painted backgrounds to extend a shot they looked, like never before to me, so very painted. Nothing close to real.
Anyway. The good. Star Wars feels lived in. The world is dirty and full of muck and broken down things. It’s a future that feels like it was always there. Truly fantastic. In fact, I’d argue there is so much there to like that the downfalls are even worse because of it. To wit:
Luke Skywalker is not a character you can root for. You can root for him to shut up. You can root for him to get shot. You can root for him to stop fucking whining for ten seconds. You can root for him to win. And yes he is on a big heroic journey. But at heart he is the whiny kid who sucks. All he wants to do is get off planet then he whines about that. All he wants is to join the rebellion, then he whines about that. And so on. There is no power in the universe greater than his whine. Do or do not – there is always more whining.
Which brings me to my single biggest problem with the film. It is a two hour example of telling not showing. Look, Luke is pretty much Kevin Bacon in Footloose. But when someone in Footloose would tell Bacon to not do something he would stalk off, he would express his anger and frustration physically. He would show you how he felt. Lucas’ script denies us that with Skywalker. Instead all he can do is tell us. Over and over again. He doesn’t show us once how he feels.
We’re told Storm troopers are great shots. And never once shown them hitting a target.
We’re told Vader is a great pilot but we only see him fly in a straight line.
We’re told the big end shot is impossible and a hard flight but we’re show ship after ship flying in a straight line just fine down there. I mean these things go three wide, with the two in the rear swearing “We’ve got your back,” each time.
And about that: Those ships didn’t have rear facing guns. They, in no way shape, or form, had anyone’s back. All you had to do was fly directly behind them and shoot a lot. Which they did. Not once, but many times. Team after team, it felt like, did the exact same thing. No one learned. There were no tactics. It was just go there, fly in a straight line and hope a lot.
Meanwhile the dialogue is trying to sell us on this tense battle. But they didn’t show us that. They didn’t have the two escort ships flying outside the canyon to provide cover fire. They didn’t show anything but ships flying in a straight fucking line. One of the most visually uninteresting fight scenes of all time. But they kept trying to tell us it wasn’t.
Again and again the film tells us this stuff but steadfastly refuses to show us any of it.
The future films (Empire and Jedi that is) do a much better job. Hell more happens in the first 30 minutes of Empire than in the two hours of Star Wars (And fuck you its name is Star Wars. Not Episode IV.)
A few other notes: Why does Chewbacca not get a medal at the end? Why do we snub the wookie? What’s up with that? Obi Wan gives Luke a light saber and lets him turn it on with no warning or instruction. That shit ain’t cool. You don’t hand a man a laser sword and just act like it’s a toy. Show some respect, Kenobi. I forgot there were really tall Jawa! When they take C3PO and R2 out to the farm we see some Jawa the size of C3PO! I forgot that, or never noticed it before! Look:
Oddly, that blew my mind.
So basically, what I’m saying is… Star Wars is the Phantom Menace of the first trilogy.
* I was 5 when Empire came out. I was in kindergarten. My dad, an SF writer, really wanted to go see Empire, having seen Star Wars (and seeing it had potential to maybe be better with the next film) but he thought I should see it. The problem was that involved taking me out of kindergarten early one day. Which was fine, except he showed up while they were letting us watch Scooby-Doo. I loved Scooby-Doo. I loved it so damn much, you guys. And I didn’t wanna go to some dumb movie without finishing the episode. Because I wouldn’t know who did it! I had to know. And my father, in a fit of frustration, said to me: “Fred is going to have a plan soon, but they’ll go to commercial so you don’t hear it. Then it’ll turn out to be the guy you think maybe it could be, but couldn’t possibly be, simply because he wore a mask.” He went on a bit, finished up and said “So can we go?” I just nodded. I felt like crying. He ruined Scooby-Doo for me that day. I couldn’t watch it again (Well until Mystery, Inc. which was amazing). Years later I told him how that made me feel. He nodded at me, apologized, but added “But come on, Scooby-Doo sucks.” We never saw eye to eye about that. Ever. I found out tonight, watching Empire, that when I watch it I still get oddly mad at the movie, because it was why I couldn’t enjoy Scooby-Doo. So there’s that.
Welcome back! No, really, I feel kinda bad. I wanted to update about the trip west every night but we’d get in after 12+ hours in the car and I just couldn’t face it, somehow. But now we’re here and all and I guess it is time to spin the magic time wheel back and look at what went on.
Tuesday we waited for the guys to come and haul the last stuff out of the apartment so we could get on the road. They were supposed to show between 8-10 and that normal means 9:30. We were gonna be on the road by maybe 11, since we had 12 hours to Chicago. They showed up at almost noon.
After they were done we loaded the car. Except the car didn’t want to hold as much as we thought it would. And so a buncha stuff got left behind. No choice. All replaceable. And we were off. And there was driving. And driving. And driving. And the cat was fine, just sleeping in his carrier, which was awesome.
Though – in Ohio.. well see we had to get a ticket to enter the Ohio turnpike. Laszlo grabs the ticket and tries to stick it into a slot in the dash. It’s dark at this point, keep in mind. And I hear “Oh, wait, no, hey!” and see it seem to go into the CD player. But I thought he pulled it back. No, it got sucked into the CD player. Just whoosh. Sucked right in. And we drove and considered what to do. Gamely I hit the eject button, because that wouldn’t work but might be fun to try.
The CD player happily ejected the ticket. Just spat it right out like nothing had been abnormal about it eating a slip of paper in the first place.
And we drove on. We hit Chicago that night and stayed in a perfectly fine little hotel. Of course the night manager came out to say hi while we were parking to unload and locked himself out of the hotel – but hey. That happens, right?
Wedsnesday we hit the road at around 9, having gotten in at like 2am the night before. Really Weds was just a day. A day of endless driving. Easily 15 hours in the car. It just sort of happened. We listened to a lot of the audio book version of John Dies at The End (Yeah I’ve bought two copies of the book over the years, and the movie and now this. We both may adore this book, just sayin’) to try and keep sane.
Keep in mind, I don’t drive so all this insanity was Laszlo heroically managing to not kill me for being useless. The cat has an excuse, at least. My, I got thumbs. But anyway…
We stopped in Cheyenne and landed in a hotel full of snarky people. People who told us the parking lot “A few blocks down” was secure. If they meant “Not at all secure and fuck you” they would have been right. That might be what they meant though, so I won’t call them liars.
Thursday we decided to hit Boise instead of pushing all the way through. Because that would have been dumb. Boise is fun to say. Boise Boise Boise. That there is Boise.
Going through Utah we found that part of i84 was on fire. Literally. A fuel tanker had overturned and set the road itself on fire. So we got diverted. Onto Rainbow Road. No other way to describe it. Like a goat path someone had paved it was this road that curved with hairpin turns up and up and up and then down down down all the while not bothering to have rails. Just speeding toward a turn and there’s open sky in front of you, oh god, here we go, off a cliff and into the… nope, there’s more road. Harrowing. Truly insane. People out there must keep that road around as a fucking prank.
Friday we set out for the final push. Lots of desolation and barren hills and such to drive through and then Portland.
Adventure over, right? Nope. Because we got to a freezing house. Two facts for you: in NY Con Ed does electric and gas. In CA PG&E is Pacific Gas and Electric. In Portland PGE is Portland General Electric. So I set up service with PGE but didn’t bother to call NW Natural, you know, the gas company.
So no heat or hot water since we’ve been here. That will be fixed tomorrow. Also no real internet, just this hotspot I need to extra stingy with because it is how I do my dayjob, until the 29th. So that makes life interesting. Keep in mind the TV and all don’t show up till possibly Nov 6th. So it’s been quiet.
Anyway I think that catches everything up but there could be future “Oh, I forgot XYZ” type things eventually. Who knows. Not me.
The movers were supposed to show up at 9am. At 8am, when they arrived, I was still asleep. So, putting on pants at speed, we went over all the paperwork.
That’s when I saw they tried to give me a total insurance coverage of 3500. That’s it. For my entire move. Seems the full (very much more) coverage got forgotten. So there were calls and a bit of stressed yelling.
They started to work. Now a bunch of stuff isn’t going in the move, I’ll get back to that, but since there hadn’t been time before they got there to finish moving some stuff around flat surfaces not going were quickly receptacles for stray bits that were also not going. Which meant there were no flat surfaces left to sit on.
Anyway, the movers themselves were champs. They didn’t slow down for six hours. Each bookcase was lovingly wrapped in blankets and tape and then cling wrapped like a cocoon. Boxes were filled (we’d packed, but you know the hat rack, etc. all had to be boxed.) and wrapped and hauled down.
They also packed the kitchen for us, which was awesome. Now, the kitchen is the last remnant of a fun game I like to play in places I live. I hide little toys in cabinets and, well, the freezer even, just all over. For fun. If you find them, feel free to move them! It’s a fun little game.
The guy packing the kitchen never even blinked. Just put each toy into a box with everything else. Making sure to get each last one. Of course he looked at my bright orange, perfectly cubed microwave and called me over.
“Sir? Is this full of water maybe? Do I…”
“That’s a microwave.”
“It is? Oh… no, really?” And I opened it and showed him proof. He laughed. That microwave was his little highlight for the day.
I had also carefully, because I had a roll of mover’s cling wrap myself (don’t ask) wrapped my baseball bat, mic stand, guitar stand and canes in a bit cocoon bundle. Thought it’d be helpful for later. Well the foreman stops. Looks at it. Looks at me. Pokes the cocoon with a finger, tenderly.
“What… what is that?”
“You know, canes, mic stand, just… sticklike stuff. I thought that way…” He didn’t let me finish, just grabbed it up and put it in a box, shaking his head. Of course we also used a bunch of 20 gallon water tight plastic bins. I can not recommend this idea enough. They’re way more money than boxes but hold more, and can be used later for storage and stuff. They’re also tougher. So, anyway, around 90% of non-media stuff was in bins like that. Now, the bins have holes in the corner of the lids and bin itself so you can cable tie them shut. Prevents accidents.
I, of course, cable tied my bins shut. Because though it would be annoying on the other side I didn’t want to have one fall… op… what’s that? You’re going to cocoon each bin so thick it couldn’t open if God Himself tried without a sturdy knife, some acid and a lot of luck? Oh. Well. Glad I did that extra work and made this stupider for myself then.
Anyway, sometime that afternoon they finished, we grabbed food and came back to deal with everything else.
See, we don’t leave till tomorrow. there is a lot of stuff that isn’t going – the couch and beds and desks for example, that we had to hire a company to haul the crap away. They come tomorrow morning. But in the meantime everything coming with us in the car (computers, laptops, coffee maker, whiskey, cat – THE ESSENSIALS) has to be packed and gathered and stuff needs to be thrown out and…
So that was the rest of the day.
Soon I try and sleep (I’ve been sleeping worse than ever of course, because of course) and get up in the morning to try and organize the hauling and the last organization of the car stuff at the same time (not me alone, none of this has been me alone and I probably haven’t even done the lion’s share of the work, to be fair) so we can get on the road and hit Chicago in the first push.
There will be updates as best I can, probably at night, after a full day, before I pass out. Because I can.
On Monday, I’ll be 38. It was a while back that I realized shit needed to change. Part of that was me living in NY. I grew up here. I’ve lived here most of my life with tiny stints in other locations. I’ll always be a NY’er. But trying to make a living freelance writing and editing while living in NY is one of those things, that… well it’s doable, but rarely happily doable.
You have to take a lot of gigs you despise, and even the cost of living here is sort of fucked up. So it comes down to that most important of things:
Quality of life issues.
With that in mind, I started to seek out a plan that would let me improve my quality of life, overall. I found I was starting to, just at the edges, be done with New York in a sense.
This isn’t to dump on NY, but I have a rule: New York rebirths itself so often that you need to fall in love with the current version every 5 to 7 years. When you find yourself not falling back in love with it – consider leaving before you grow to hate it. I don’t ever want to hate it in NY. But let’s face it – NY actively doesn’t want you here. You have to fight and push for every inch and that can be wonderful – it is an accomplishment and a matter of pride to make it here. But it is also exhausting. I have nothing left to prove, I’m just not interested in it. I’m good, ya know?
Everything there adds up to: Time to move. But this is me. I’m a NY’er. I’ll always be one, of course, but… I’m the guy people say they expect to live here forever. Hell, I’m the guy who expected to live here forever. Life, however, takes its own turns, and fighting them for the sake of fighting them isn’t often useful. My life turned toward leaving and instead of fighting it, I realized it felt right and leaned into the idea.
But to where? Somewhere I had a bunch of friends. Somewhere I had a bunch of professional contacts. Somewhere cheaper to live, that felt like a good place to set down a few roots, and someplace I could see myself long term.
So, like everyone that has ever worked on a comic book, I decided to move to Portland.
But, me being me, I had to make this complex. I didn’t want to just rent out there, because renting is expensive long term and I was in a position I could actually afford to buy a home. So I did. I now own this house:
The major thing is: come mid-October I will not be in New York. I’m sure I’ll come back once or twice a year, or whatever it is – but past that I’ll be on the other coast.
Some tiny other facts:
So. Any questions?
So while having lunch today my phone went off. A text message from a number not in my contact list. Fine, happens, not strange. And I look. And it is directions and times for a funeral for someone whose name I do not know.
And I look. And I think. I mean I’ve known a lot of people. This could be someone I forgot. Maybe this was a friend. But search my brain as I might I couldn’t place it. And so as I sat there, staring at this message, I realized this was the worst case of wrong number in a long time.
So I had to reply. I asked who it was, just in case. A last ditch. And got a reply the sender was Lisa and wasn’t I Dina? Woops, no. Oh man. How horrible must that be? To be mid-grief over someone and then shoot out info like that to a stranger?
So I offered my condolences and explained that the number was wrong.
Because what else could I do?
But somehow I still feel bad for being a wrong number, you know?